A summer rain is falling today. Its warm enough to be outside, but wet enough that its uncomfortable. This summer is shaping up to be a lot like that for me.
I love it when summer arrives, and my staff kids come "home", and camp becomes alive again with the sights, sounds, and smells of summertime.....but this is my last summer with "my" kids, my last here at this beautiful place. Warm, but uncomfortable.
My girls piled into their dad's car this morning for a three week trip down to Medford. I can get so much accomplished while they are away, especially in their bedrooms with an impending move looming in our future....but I miss them so much when they are away, and this morning, we were all teary when they left. Warm, but uncomfortable.
This job and this place have meant so much to me at so many different times and stages of my life. I know it is time to move on, yet I also know God brought me here four years ago because it was what I needed. And I am moving on from here because I need to, and camp needs me to...but I will miss it so much, and coming back in the future will never feel the same as coming back in the past did. It may even feel better - who knows?! - but it won't the same. Warm, but uncomfortable.
My life is transitioning in a lot of ways right now. Some I am embracing - some I am not. All, no matter how they turn out, will mold me into someone new, someone different, someone primed and ready (at best) for life's next chapters. Exciting and scary. Warm, but uncomfortable.
The summer rain continues to drizzle outside of sliding door. I can feel the warmth of the day through the glass. Maybe I should take a little walk outside, just to test the "uncomfortableness" of the rain ~~ and of life.
